Let the beat build

I welcome you with arms wide open

Freedom

Cheers to us

:)

Remember when it rains

Anyone in the right state of mind wouldn't have done what you did.

You are mad because of your own actions

And you want to let it out on me.

Did i ask you to lie and cover up?

No.

Did i ask you be the the middle person?

No.

Did I ask you to feel "stuck"?

No.

You're mad at yourself

for hurting me

when all you wanted to do was protect me.

But am I wrong that I fel betrayed?

Am I wrong that I feel hurt?

I think there's something

that's clouding your judgements.

You are big enough to know it.

Was I ever a bad friend?

When your close friend tells shit about you.

When she ignored you.

When she did so many things without inviting you?

Did I ever put salt to your wound and diss you?

No, I dont think so.

Instead I took you in and tried my best to make you happy.

And as for you,

grow up please.

Since when did I ever have a say?

You do what ever you like.

Meet whom ever you want to.

Say what ever that comes to your mind.

Everything.

So when did I say

"jangan kawan"?

I just said, of all the people in the world,

why that paricular friend.

And please,

don't put words into my mouth.

I may have had doubts,

but that was it.

If I hated her,

I wouldnt be hanging out with her so often would I?

You should give people the benefit of the doubt,

always.

You don't have to disappear.

You don't have to run away from being in the picture.

U put yourself there, so stay.

U made your choice.

I am happy with what I have now.

I don't hate you.

Seriously.

I felt mad that second,

but I wasn't anymore after.

Remember,

quality over quantity.

That's all that matters.

The best solution to a problem,

is the distance between your knees

and the ground.

I don't need anyone to make me feel better.

Him alone,

that's all I need.

Over coffee and a movie

You are such a sweetheart.

Everything you say,

its just flattering.

The funny thing is,

you're not even trying.

Benci la.

But seriously,

the slang,

its just too cute ;)

Its the lines

That was fast.

hahaha.

its funny how you guys run around

trying to clean the mess.

That is why they say

never lie.

Home alone this week.

Maybe I should head down to SH.

or if I'm lucky enough,

I get SR.

SA?

Dead and gone.

hahahahha

Its S(s) talk all the way baby.

See who has the strongest

"lovers instinct"

;)

Don't remind me of the past

I saw the news feed.

Albums and friends being tagged

and it occurs to me,

never,

not even once,

have i experience it.

I was never given the chance.

If I were,

I would have definitely make the best out of it.

So was it you

or was it me?

Please don't remind me of the past.

My personal life is all mine.

You don't have to barge in

and take matters into your own hands.

I appreciate the concern.

But it's not helping at all.

Instead,

its more complicated than it already was.

Thank you.

If that is what you're expecting from me.

For S

Thank you S.

You found me at the right time.

I love the line, I really do :)

As for you,

I'm disgusted.

Keep comparing yourself.

You'll end up just like him.

I look forward to the "sshhh hour".

Hehe ;)

I know you want me ;)

The past 5 days was utterly amazing.

I'm smiling ear to ear.

Life is good.

SO good.

Thoughtful messages awaits me each morning.

What a thrill ;)

Take it to the top!

Bigger plans this time.

I will pull through.

Someone decided to tell me something funny.

Boy, it's deifnitely NOT the right time.

I think you are aware of that.

Secondly,

you should have upmarket yourself instead of comparing.

"each to its own"

Thirdly,

you guys ARE friends remember?!?!

the friend-eat-friend world is becoming

too COMMON these days.

Gila la orang orang ni.

Sorry but I'm not interested.

And stop asking what I look for in a guy.

Cause honestly, I don't even know.

When the heart is better than the face

and the brain is better than the money,

Then maybe that's where I'll let my anchor down.

It gets really irritating when you guys try too hard (=_=')

So smart to konon konon take it to the next level kan?

Entertain yourself then.

I'm happy on my own now :)

If I'm interested, I would definitely make it work.

So stop being pushy will you!

When you can't have what you want

I'm praying for strength.

I can't thank kakak and mum enough.

I'd die without them.

For once, mum actually let me decide.

She said when it comes feelings,

no one can decide but ourselves.

She said I'm big enough.

If I am, why can't I handle this?

I was shock.

Truth hurts.

Badly.

And you still said you did nothing wrong.

alone

I can't express myself.

Scared of the people around me.

I'm hurt.

Badly.

I can't even put words to describe myself now.

:'(((

Broken strings

I'm in love with that song.

Its a sad one, no doubt,

but every time its on,

it puts a smile on my face.

less is more.

sometimes.

just sometimes.

Its better to say too much than say nothing at all

You're everything I thought you never were

And nothing like I thought you could’ve been

But still you live inside of me

So tell me how is that?

Something that I feel I need to say

But up to now I’ve always been afraid

That you would never come around

And still I want to put this out

You say you’ve got the most respect for me

But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me

And still you’re in my heart

But you’re the only one and yes

There are times when I hate you

But I don’t complain

Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away

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Is it me or is it the dj that has been playing emotion-related songs nowadays?

The minute I put my seat belts on, its as if I've signed up for a "read my mind" game.

I could relate myself to all of it.

Is that normal?

Or am I getting pretty weird?

I don't know how we ended up here.

I don't know how it got so severe.

And I don't know how to make it clear.

It's hard, really it is.

Should I press play,

or

should I just pause?

Someone I know, but barely hang out or even have a conversation with came up to me and asked for help. One I could not say no to. Maybe because I knew how hard it is to be going through such pain. And maybe because I was hoping someone would reach out to me like I did to that person.

I can't seem to speak my mind these days.

I'm living in denial, but I'm living.

But how much longer?

Forgive and forget?

History repeats itself.

Of course, its his story right?

Maybe I'm just too forgiving.

But is it wrong?

I miss

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But I miss this one most :(

Phew.

That wasn't so hard.

Coming from an anti-affectionate like me,

it was kinda tough (=_=')

qwote feat. shaggy

Now you wanna hold me, kiss, and touch me

Just yesterday you ain’t even know me

I’ve been lonely, no communication

Findin’ numbers am I supposed to be patient

I waited the sun came up, watched you walk out the house I was stuck

Tears fell down my face, so hurt

You chase everything in a tight min-skirt (baby I’m sorry)

That hurt was she better than me

Bein in love ain’t cost but you ain’t even free

Why me? Why you standin right here?Pullin on my wrist singin in my ear

You wanna make love no you wanna play games

I’m a grown woman better check my name

Tired of being damaged all I do is cry

You wanna start over gimme 1 reason why

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i love the lyrics. haha. damn kurang ajar right? ;)

ihatethis

Maybe I was stupid

For telling you goodbye

Maybe I was wrong for trying to pick a fight

I know that I got issues

But you're pretty messed up too

Either way I found out

I'm nothing without you

**********

Being with you is so dysfunctional

I really shouldn't miss you

But I can't let you go

**********

URGH!
STUPIDSHIT!!

My Numero Uno

Happy Birthday Mummy.

Hope you'll enjoy the surprise party I'm planning for you.

Friday night, you better be ready!!

Hehehe ;)

After all this times

We weren't on the same boat.

Or were we?

As much as I thought I knew,

I can't figure you out.

Listen, don't just hear

If you dont' know me at this point then I highly doubt you ever will.

Cry me a river

I've finally let it out.

I've been sweeping things under the carpet

and its just too much.

I know it's not the best place to do it,

I tried holding back,

but wet cheeks was what I got.

Crying was nothing unusual before,

but it is now.

Maybe I am stronger than what I used to be.

2004

Time really flies.

I remember that afternoon very well.

My yellow shirt and dark blue denim jeans.

The texture of the red sofa is still very fresh in my mind.

At that point,

I knew you were the one.

And I've never look back ever since.

Things I never thought you'd do

I may not look like one,

but I'm a tough tough cookie.

Even if I'm not 'so' tough,

I'll work my way there.

I'm only human.

I can't keep it together all the time.

I just can't be sorry for that.

Can't hold it together any longer

I miss you sayang.

Its not even funny anymore.

Things will be better.

I promise.

Tell me something I don't know

No more, no less.

I won't compromise.

You don't miss what you don't have.

Maybe its because of that.

Complicating the uncomplicated

You of all people should know

that I'm in this for long,

that I'm serious about this.

It feels good to have assuarance once in a while

Never too late

What if

I don't have a choice?

Fight for me.

Dont even think of it

I gave you your chance

Not once, not twice

but countless.

Still, I'm giving you now.

What have you got to say for yourself?

I'm waiting for you to do something.

I'm still waiting.

I'm even pointing you to the right direction.

But you're not doing anything.

Don't blame me if this door closes on you.

That little something

Scared yet thrilled.

I'm reminded by the tinkling feeling.

Having butterflies and skipping heartbeats.

What a lovely thing.

No better way to start a new beginning.

Should I explain how happy I am again?

Hehe ;)

Koko Lover

At this point,

you're my one and only lover.

Meet Koko :)

We, Us, Ours

You, you and you.

You're giving me a headache.

And the last thing I need now,

a heartbreak.

Just once perhaps

Just once, I wish you’d tell me you miss me.

Just once, I need to know our years together meant something to you.

Just once, I wish you’d let your guard down.

I don’t even know what the hell I’m saying here.

Act upon it

All I need is a sign.

Sometimes, all you have to do is

show.

Rupa dan Jiwa

Don't comment on the title.

Its just a book I saw while loitering around Ramli's library cum office while we were there for a very quick supper. Hehe.

Went to watch Rasa unmasked in KLPAC.

It was brilliant!

Had supper at Shook and Ramli's after.

Slept at 0330 and up again at 0800 (-_-")

I.....need....sleeepppp.....

Mumbles fumbles

You talk so much yet you don't deliver.

What's that again?

Can't hear what you're saying.

HAHAHA.

You spoke too soon

too good?

its nothing close to that.

its me who has been keeping myself happy.

Showing the obvious

You're actually very proud of it, aren't you?

Shame.

I thought you were beyond that.

Action speaks louder than words.

Haha.

Erased

You don't see me

The same no more

It's hard

To see the light with closing doors

Don't treat me like

Like I'm invisible

Your tone with me

It's not the usual

We scream, we fight

Saying things that we both regret

And that's not right

That you could just forget me like that

You've never tried

Always taking the easy route

Always taking the easy route

Never want to work it out

*****

You want to be free

You want to leave me

I can't believe '

Cause without you

Baby I'm incomplete

*****

Am I erased

Just a segment

Of your imagination

I'm feeling replaced

Like a faded picture

Where you can't see my face

Scratched out

Erased

*****

In memory of

What we used to call love

I reminisce

When it used to be us

Remember when

When I was the most

Important to you

But now I'm a ghost

This trust has died

There's no way we can bring it back

We live our life

No holds-barred

And no strings attached

It's in your eyes

A part of you just wants me back

And all of me just wants you back

*****

You want to be free

You want to leave me

I can't believe

Am I.. Am I..

*****

Can anybody see me

See me now?

I'm erased from the crowd

So cold and I don't know how

Find me now.........

Wasted

Distance makes the heart grow fonder.

I guess not.

Its not going anywhere.

We're just running in circles.

Walk away.

Be more like me

Some people will work things out

And some just don't know how to change

It took you a week?

A text barely half a page?

Don't blame time.

You had lots of it.

Are you realising something?

Maybe if you had done something earlier,

things wouldn't be as dry as it is now.

When love overlooks happiness

Its not about who you want to be with,

but who wants to be with you.

Its not about who you love,

but who is in love with you.

Its not about the years you've been together,

but being together for the years to come.

Slumcat million-dolls

(Jai Ho)

(Jai Ho)I got (I got) shivers (shivers),

When you touch away,

I'll make you hot,

Get all you got,

I'll make you wanna say (Jai Ho)

(Jai Ho)

I got (I got) fever (fever),

Running like a fire,For you I will go all the way,

I wanna take you higher (Jai Ho)

I keep it steady

Cuz steady is how I feel it.

This beat is heavy, so heavy,

You gon feel it.

(Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho)

You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho)

You are my destiny,

Jai Ho! Uh-uh-uh-oh!(Jai Ho)

No there is nothing that can stop us(Jai Ho)

Nothing can ever come between us,(Jai Ho)

So come and dance with me,

Jai Ho! (oohh)

Catch me, catch me, catch me, come and catch me,

I want you now,

I know you can save me, come and save me,

I need you now.

I am yours forever, yes, forever,

I will follow,

Anywhere in anyway,

Never gonna let go.

Jai Ho

(Jai Ho) Escape (escape) away (away),

I'll take you to a place,

This fantasy of you and me,

I'll never lose the chase.

(Jai Ho)

Yeaahhhh (Jai Ho) Yeaahhhh

I can (I can) feel you (feel you),

Rushing through my veins,

There's an notion in my heart,

I will never be the same.(Jai Ho)

Just keep it burnin', yeah baby,

Just keep it comin', (Jai Ho)

You're gonna find out, baby,

I'm one in a million.

(Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho)

You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho)

You are my destiny,

Jai Oh! Uh-uh-uh-oh!

(Jai Ho)

No there is nothing that can stop us(Jai Ho)

Nothing can ever come between us(Jai Ho)

So come and dance with me,

Jai Ho! (oohh) (You and me, it's destiny)

Catch me, catch me, catch me, come and catch me,

I want you now,

I know you can save me, come and save me,

I need you now.

I am yours forever, yes, forever,

I will follow,

Anywhere in anyway,

Never gonna let go.

Jai Ho (Yeeeaaahh), Jai Ho (Yeeeaaahh), Jai Ho

I need you,

Gonna make it,(Jai Ho)

I'm ready,

So take it!

(Jai Ho)

You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho)

You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho)

You are my destiny,

Jai Oh! Uh-uh-uh-oh!

(Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us,(Jai Ho)

Nothing can ever come between us,(Jai Ho)

So come and dance with me,

Jai Ho! (oohh) (You and me, it's destiny)

Jai Ho!

Baila baila!

Baila baila!

Jai Ho!

Baila baila!

Jai Ho!

The rest is still unwritten

I don't mind taking the risk.

If it happens, then its fated.

If it doesn't, other things will show up.

Like how some things did.

Hehe.

Its a cycle

Its so bloody painful.

The pain killers are not working.

I wish I could go home and sleep it off.

The waiting kills

This week has been awfully hectic.

Its Thursday, yet I'm still feeling the Monday blues.

On a brighter note, the days are getting closer.

I'm calling you

Is it 'silent moment' again?

If it is, it's not helping.

Not even a little.

Another year has passed

Happy Birthday.

You have so much to celebrate.

A year older, hopefully wiser too.

I'm numb.

I don't know if it's good or bad.

What's in it for me?

You want me to respect you.
You want me to trust you.
You want me to prioritize you.
You want me to love you.

But what can you do for me?
What can you give me?

All I want is for you to trust me.

Can you do that?

Excuse me?

Since when did you care?

I thought you wanted to date and meet new people?

You've put me on the shelf for far too long.

I'm not made to collect dust.

You of all people should know that.

"I don't want to play the broken-hearted girl"

Its just a word

Guilty?

Not gonna say sorry.

Not this time.

The irony

I keep asking myself.

How sure am I about being sure?

What if it's just a comfort zone?

Should we try?

We've been trying.

Guess we got to try harder.

And this time, without passion and sympathy.

"Letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go"

When you think of it

Its like putting salt on an open wound.
Thats exactly how I feel.
Since you're up and bouncing,
I should too.
I should not waste my time over this.

Office Politics

You walk into the office, talking on the phone.

She was in here speaking to someone on the phone too.

You guys were actually talking to each other.

Answering each other's question.

It was like a live telecast.

She was asking, yet i could hear the answers.

That person was just next to me.

They could even hear each other's voices.

Funny right?

Why talk on the phone when you're just separated by a cubicle?

And realizing the conversation might go on and that they didn't wanna blow the cover,

you walked out pretending to go to the loo or something.

Here's the part where its bloody ridiculous.

You come in and you ask me,

"Is she there at her seat?"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHA

Who are you trying to kid???

You think I'm that dumb?!?

Now this is

office politics.

Don't feel blue

Is this love?

Or is it just an infatuation?

An hour but not more than two

Don’t say we’re okay

Just because I’m here

You hurt me bad but I wont shed a tear

Of starvation and boredom

Sporty

stella mccartney

Mixed Metallics

miu miu

Moto Bootie

Proenza Schouler

Cowboy
Givenchy by Riccardo Tisci

Rewind

You assume too much and look where it has brought us.

I want to press the rewind button right this instant

:(

Fernleaf

Say what???

A week kills me,

what more a month.

I hope 33days will travel like a flash.

By the way...

The first rule:

Never make assumptions.

:'(

I thought I'm made of steel.
Little that I know,
I'm more fragile than a delicate little flower.

what is enough?

Do you know that feeling
that you've tried so hard, you've put in so much
yet its not enough.
You know you did all that you could possibly do.
You put on your best clothes.
You prepare the best meal.
You give first class treatment.
You give it some time, so you don't look too pushy.
You give it patience and add lineancy to it.
You give your bloody everything.
But....
Its just not enough.

Tell me what is?

Maybe I'm not enough.
Or maybe you're just asking too much.

How now brown cow?

It used to be 'petaling street' but now its all authentic.

With pictures of paperbag alright =P

Then it used to be 'i dont drink nor do i do drug'.

But now its beer flashing all the wayyyy.

Hahaha.

Tue la, mengata orang lagi.

See what you've become.

Exactly what you talked about others.

What was it that you said,

'baru nak up'?

Hihihihihihi.

What goes around, comes back around.

Candid in time

Sorry I've abandoned this blog.

Been really busy this lately.

Work Work Work.

Can't wait for the white sandy beaches :)

Burn bitch burnn

You can kill yourself for all i care :)

Half full

I feel empty.

And so they say

"Live life abundantly"

Walk with me baby

Tony Bianco

Steve Madden

Nine West

MY ULTIMATE FAV :):)

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Now I wish I'm living in the US! Sighhhh

*continues dreaming*

Random ramblings

Why must you be so perasan that its you?

Get a life sister!

I have other things to keep me on my feet.

No, nothing to do with you at all!

Ahahahaha.

Pity you.

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I'm having stomach cramps at the moment. Can't be the menses cycle. Or maybe its nearing? I don't keep track nowadays so I can't really tell. Yes yes, that's bad but I seriously have no time to jot down each and every time it happens. Considering it does come monthly. Haha.

Incase you're wondering, we're doing absolutely great. Perfectly strong and falling more and more in love every day. It gets rough at times, but we sleep it off for a better tomorrow. You got that right. We're one 'sleepy' couple. I'm happy just the way it is now. Yes, I'm talking about IZS. Hehehe.

I want to post pictures but I can't find any that's interesting so I guess I'll leave you with this. And NO, I'm not full of myself, just sometimes. Hahaha.

JCrew love

I love this.

Bold, chunky jewellery with basic cotton t-shirts.

s.d.n.e.i.r.f

Friends.

You meet, you hang out, you get close and along the way there'll be challenges of trust and honesty.

But is there such term of just 'dropping a friend'?

You fight and either stop talking or get over it.

But acting like we've never known each other and stop any form of communication is totally ermm, weird?

Especially being in the same room and not acknowledging each other.

Its so funny how some people can do it.

I can't.

Durban II

Home

People fishing by the beach (cant remember the name)

Gateway Mall

Durban III

Umhlanga Beach

It is pronounced as (oom-schlang-ga)

Its sooooo beautiful.

They're building a new jetty with lamp posts that resembles an elephant's tusk.

But with blue lights though.

Theres contstruction work everywhere.

All for the BIG 2010.

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Eleanor Hardwick

Can you believe these beautiful pictures are from a 15 year old girl?

Eleanor Hardwick

A young student and photographer.