Its better to say too much than say nothing at all

You're everything I thought you never were

And nothing like I thought you could’ve been

But still you live inside of me

So tell me how is that?

Something that I feel I need to say

But up to now I’ve always been afraid

That you would never come around

And still I want to put this out

You say you’ve got the most respect for me

But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me

And still you’re in my heart

But you’re the only one and yes

There are times when I hate you

But I don’t complain

Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away

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Is it me or is it the dj that has been playing emotion-related songs nowadays?

The minute I put my seat belts on, its as if I've signed up for a "read my mind" game.

I could relate myself to all of it.

Is that normal?

Or am I getting pretty weird?

I don't know how we ended up here.

I don't know how it got so severe.

And I don't know how to make it clear.

It's hard, really it is.

Should I press play,

or

should I just pause?

Someone I know, but barely hang out or even have a conversation with came up to me and asked for help. One I could not say no to. Maybe because I knew how hard it is to be going through such pain. And maybe because I was hoping someone would reach out to me like I did to that person.

I can't seem to speak my mind these days.

I'm living in denial, but I'm living.

But how much longer?