Let the beat build

I welcome you with arms wide open

Freedom

Cheers to us

:)

Remember when it rains

Anyone in the right state of mind wouldn't have done what you did.

You are mad because of your own actions

And you want to let it out on me.

Did i ask you to lie and cover up?

No.

Did i ask you be the the middle person?

No.

Did I ask you to feel "stuck"?

No.

You're mad at yourself

for hurting me

when all you wanted to do was protect me.

But am I wrong that I fel betrayed?

Am I wrong that I feel hurt?

I think there's something

that's clouding your judgements.

You are big enough to know it.

Was I ever a bad friend?

When your close friend tells shit about you.

When she ignored you.

When she did so many things without inviting you?

Did I ever put salt to your wound and diss you?

No, I dont think so.

Instead I took you in and tried my best to make you happy.

And as for you,

grow up please.

Since when did I ever have a say?

You do what ever you like.

Meet whom ever you want to.

Say what ever that comes to your mind.

Everything.

So when did I say

"jangan kawan"?

I just said, of all the people in the world,

why that paricular friend.

And please,

don't put words into my mouth.

I may have had doubts,

but that was it.

If I hated her,

I wouldnt be hanging out with her so often would I?

You should give people the benefit of the doubt,

always.

You don't have to disappear.

You don't have to run away from being in the picture.

U put yourself there, so stay.

U made your choice.

I am happy with what I have now.

I don't hate you.

Seriously.

I felt mad that second,

but I wasn't anymore after.

Remember,

quality over quantity.

That's all that matters.

The best solution to a problem,

is the distance between your knees

and the ground.

I don't need anyone to make me feel better.

Him alone,

that's all I need.

Over coffee and a movie

You are such a sweetheart.

Everything you say,

its just flattering.

The funny thing is,

you're not even trying.

Benci la.

But seriously,

the slang,

its just too cute ;)

Its the lines

That was fast.

hahaha.

its funny how you guys run around

trying to clean the mess.

That is why they say

never lie.

Home alone this week.

Maybe I should head down to SH.

or if I'm lucky enough,

I get SR.

SA?

Dead and gone.

hahahahha

Its S(s) talk all the way baby.

See who has the strongest

"lovers instinct"

;)

Don't remind me of the past

I saw the news feed.

Albums and friends being tagged

and it occurs to me,

never,

not even once,

have i experience it.

I was never given the chance.

If I were,

I would have definitely make the best out of it.

So was it you

or was it me?

Please don't remind me of the past.

My personal life is all mine.

You don't have to barge in

and take matters into your own hands.

I appreciate the concern.

But it's not helping at all.

Instead,

its more complicated than it already was.

Thank you.

If that is what you're expecting from me.

For S

Thank you S.

You found me at the right time.

I love the line, I really do :)

As for you,

I'm disgusted.

Keep comparing yourself.

You'll end up just like him.

I look forward to the "sshhh hour".

Hehe ;)

I know you want me ;)

The past 5 days was utterly amazing.

I'm smiling ear to ear.

Life is good.

SO good.

Thoughtful messages awaits me each morning.

What a thrill ;)

Take it to the top!

Bigger plans this time.

I will pull through.

Someone decided to tell me something funny.

Boy, it's deifnitely NOT the right time.

I think you are aware of that.

Secondly,

you should have upmarket yourself instead of comparing.

"each to its own"

Thirdly,

you guys ARE friends remember?!?!

the friend-eat-friend world is becoming

too COMMON these days.

Gila la orang orang ni.

Sorry but I'm not interested.

And stop asking what I look for in a guy.

Cause honestly, I don't even know.

When the heart is better than the face

and the brain is better than the money,

Then maybe that's where I'll let my anchor down.

It gets really irritating when you guys try too hard (=_=')

So smart to konon konon take it to the next level kan?

Entertain yourself then.

I'm happy on my own now :)

If I'm interested, I would definitely make it work.

So stop being pushy will you!

When you can't have what you want

I'm praying for strength.

I can't thank kakak and mum enough.

I'd die without them.

For once, mum actually let me decide.

She said when it comes feelings,

no one can decide but ourselves.

She said I'm big enough.

If I am, why can't I handle this?

I was shock.

Truth hurts.

Badly.

And you still said you did nothing wrong.

alone

I can't express myself.

Scared of the people around me.

I'm hurt.

Badly.

I can't even put words to describe myself now.

:'(((

Broken strings

I'm in love with that song.

Its a sad one, no doubt,

but every time its on,

it puts a smile on my face.

less is more.

sometimes.

just sometimes.

Its better to say too much than say nothing at all

You're everything I thought you never were

And nothing like I thought you could’ve been

But still you live inside of me

So tell me how is that?

Something that I feel I need to say

But up to now I’ve always been afraid

That you would never come around

And still I want to put this out

You say you’ve got the most respect for me

But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me

And still you’re in my heart

But you’re the only one and yes

There are times when I hate you

But I don’t complain

Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away

********************

Is it me or is it the dj that has been playing emotion-related songs nowadays?

The minute I put my seat belts on, its as if I've signed up for a "read my mind" game.

I could relate myself to all of it.

Is that normal?

Or am I getting pretty weird?

I don't know how we ended up here.

I don't know how it got so severe.

And I don't know how to make it clear.

It's hard, really it is.

Should I press play,

or

should I just pause?

Someone I know, but barely hang out or even have a conversation with came up to me and asked for help. One I could not say no to. Maybe because I knew how hard it is to be going through such pain. And maybe because I was hoping someone would reach out to me like I did to that person.

I can't seem to speak my mind these days.

I'm living in denial, but I'm living.

But how much longer?

Forgive and forget?

History repeats itself.

Of course, its his story right?

Maybe I'm just too forgiving.

But is it wrong?

I miss

*******************

But I miss this one most :(

Phew.

That wasn't so hard.

Coming from an anti-affectionate like me,

it was kinda tough (=_=')

qwote feat. shaggy

Now you wanna hold me, kiss, and touch me

Just yesterday you ain’t even know me

I’ve been lonely, no communication

Findin’ numbers am I supposed to be patient

I waited the sun came up, watched you walk out the house I was stuck

Tears fell down my face, so hurt

You chase everything in a tight min-skirt (baby I’m sorry)

That hurt was she better than me

Bein in love ain’t cost but you ain’t even free

Why me? Why you standin right here?Pullin on my wrist singin in my ear

You wanna make love no you wanna play games

I’m a grown woman better check my name

Tired of being damaged all I do is cry

You wanna start over gimme 1 reason why

******************

i love the lyrics. haha. damn kurang ajar right? ;)

ihatethis

Maybe I was stupid

For telling you goodbye

Maybe I was wrong for trying to pick a fight

I know that I got issues

But you're pretty messed up too

Either way I found out

I'm nothing without you

**********

Being with you is so dysfunctional

I really shouldn't miss you

But I can't let you go

**********

URGH!
STUPIDSHIT!!

My Numero Uno

Happy Birthday Mummy.

Hope you'll enjoy the surprise party I'm planning for you.

Friday night, you better be ready!!

Hehehe ;)

After all this times

We weren't on the same boat.

Or were we?

As much as I thought I knew,

I can't figure you out.

Listen, don't just hear

If you dont' know me at this point then I highly doubt you ever will.

Cry me a river

I've finally let it out.

I've been sweeping things under the carpet

and its just too much.

I know it's not the best place to do it,

I tried holding back,

but wet cheeks was what I got.

Crying was nothing unusual before,

but it is now.

Maybe I am stronger than what I used to be.