When you can't have what you want

I'm praying for strength.

I can't thank kakak and mum enough.

I'd die without them.

For once, mum actually let me decide.

She said when it comes feelings,

no one can decide but ourselves.

She said I'm big enough.

If I am, why can't I handle this?

I was shock.

Truth hurts.

Badly.

And you still said you did nothing wrong.