Abundance of glittering love

Let the beat build

2009-06-12T12:12:00.002+08:00

I welcome you with arms wide open

Freedom

Cheers to us

Remember when it rains

2009-06-11T10:01:00.005+08:00

Anyone in the right state of mind wouldn't have done what you did.

You are mad because of your own actions

And you want to let it out on me.

Did i ask you to lie and cover up?

No.

Did i ask you be the the middle person?

No.

Did I ask you to feel "stuck"?

No.

You're mad at yourself

for hurting me

when all you wanted to do was protect me.

But am I wrong that I fel betrayed?

Am I wrong that I feel hurt?

I think there's something

that's clouding your judgements.

You are big enough to know it.

Was I ever a bad friend?

When your close friend tells shit about you.

When she ignored you.

When she did so many things without inviting you?

Did I ever put salt to your wound and diss you?

No, I dont think so.

Instead I took you in and tried my best to make you happy.

And as for you,

grow up please.

Since when did I ever have a say?

You do what ever you like.

Meet whom ever you want to.

Say what ever that comes to your mind.

Everything.

So when did I say

"jangan kawan"?

I just said, of all the people in the world,

why that paricular friend.

And please,

don't put words into my mouth.

I may have had doubts,

but that was it.

If I hated her,

I wouldnt be hanging out with her so often would I?

You should give people the benefit of the doubt,

always.

You don't have to disappear.

You don't have to run away from being in the picture.

U put yourself there, so stay.

U made your choice.

I am happy with what I have now.

I don't hate you.

Seriously.

I felt mad that second,

but I wasn't anymore after.

Remember,

quality over quantity.

That's all that matters.

The best solution to a problem,

is the distance between your knees

and the ground.

I don't need anyone to make me feel better.

Him alone,

that's all I need.

Over coffee and a movie

2009-06-10T22:07:00.002+08:00

You are such a sweetheart.

Everything you say,

its just flattering.

The funny thing is,

you're not even trying.

Benci la.

But seriously,

the slang,

its just too cute ;)

Its the lines

2009-06-10T15:17:00.004+08:00

That was fast.

hahaha.

its funny how you guys run around

trying to clean the mess.

That is why they say

never lie.

Home alone this week.

Maybe I should head down to SH.

or if I'm lucky enough,

I get SR.

SA?

Dead and gone.

hahahahha

Its S(s) talk all the way baby.

See who has the strongest

"lovers instinct"

;)

Don't remind me of the past

2009-06-09T15:31:00.005+08:00

I saw the news feed.

Albums and friends being tagged

and it occurs to me,

never,

not even once,

have i experience it.

I was never given the chance.

If I were,

I would have definitely make the best out of it.

So was it you

or was it me?

Please don't remind me of the past.

My personal life is all mine.

You don't have to barge in

and take matters into your own hands.

I appreciate the concern.

But it's not helping at all.

Instead,

its more complicated than it already was.

Thank you.

If that is what you're expecting from me.

For S

2009-06-09T11:23:00.003+08:00

Thank you S.

You found me at the right time.

I love the line, I really do :)

As for you,

I'm disgusted.

Keep comparing yourself.

You'll end up just like him.

I look forward to the "sshhh hour".

Hehe ;)

I know you want me ;)

2009-06-07T12:41:00.004+08:00

The past 5 days was utterly amazing.

I'm smiling ear to ear.

Life is good.

SO good.

Thoughtful messages awaits me each morning.

What a thrill ;)

Take it to the top!

2009-06-04T10:33:00.004+08:00

Bigger plans this time.

I will pull through.

Someone decided to tell me something funny.

Boy, it's deifnitely NOT the right time.

I think you are aware of that.

Secondly,

you should have upmarket yourself instead of comparing.

"each to its own"

Thirdly,

you guys ARE friends remember?!?!

the friend-eat-friend world is becoming

too COMMON these days.

Gila la orang orang ni.

Sorry but I'm not interested.

And stop asking what I look for in a guy.

Cause honestly, I don't even know.

When the heart is better than the face

and the brain is better than the money,

Then maybe that's where I'll let my anchor down.

It gets really irritating when you guys try too hard (=_=')

So smart to konon konon take it to the next level kan?

Entertain yourself then.

I'm happy on my own now :)

If I'm interested, I would definitely make it work.

So stop being pushy will you!

When you can't have what you want

2009-06-01T20:24:00.003+08:00

I'm praying for strength.

I can't thank kakak and mum enough.

I'd die without them.

For once, mum actually let me decide.

She said when it comes feelings,

no one can decide but ourselves.

She said I'm big enough.

If I am, why can't I handle this?

I was shock.

Truth hurts.

Badly.

And you still said you did nothing wrong.

alone

2009-05-28T09:54:00.003+08:00

I can't express myself.

Scared of the people around me.

I'm hurt.

Badly.

I can't even put words to describe myself now.

:'(((

Broken strings

2009-05-15T09:59:00.002+08:00

I'm in love with that song.

Its a sad one, no doubt,

but every time its on,

it puts a smile on my face.

less is more.

sometimes.

just sometimes.

Its better to say too much than say nothing at all

2009-05-13T09:53:00.005+08:00

You're everything I thought you never were

And nothing like I thought you could’ve been

But still you live inside of me

So tell me how is that?

Something that I feel I need to say

But up to now I’ve always been afraid

That you would never come around

And still I want to put this out

You say you’ve got the most respect for me

But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me

And still you’re in my heart

But you’re the only one and yes

There are times when I hate you

But I don’t complain

Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away

********************

Is it me or is it the dj that has been playing emotion-related songs nowadays?

The minute I put my seat belts on, its as if I've signed up for a "read my mind" game.

I could relate myself to all of it.

Is that normal?

Or am I getting pretty weird?

I don't know how we ended up here.

I don't know how it got so severe.

And I don't know how to make it clear.

It's hard, really it is.

Should I press play,

should I just pause?

Someone I know, but barely hang out or even have a conversation with came up to me and asked for help. One I could not say no to. Maybe because I knew how hard it is to be going through such pain. And maybe because I was hoping someone would reach out to me like I did to that person.

I can't seem to speak my mind these days.

I'm living in denial, but I'm living.

But how much longer?

Forgive and forget?

2009-05-11T14:35:00.005+08:00

History repeats itself.

Of course, its his story right?

Maybe I'm just too forgiving.

But is it wrong?

I miss

2009-05-10T22:49:00.002+08:00

*******************

But I miss this one most :(

Phew.

That wasn't so hard.

Coming from an anti-affectionate like me,

it was kinda tough (=_=')

qwote feat. shaggy

2009-05-08T11:55:00.004+08:00

Now you wanna hold me, kiss, and touch me

Just yesterday you ain’t even know me

I’ve been lonely, no communication

Findin’ numbers am I supposed to be patient

I waited the sun came up, watched you walk out the house I was stuck

Tears fell down my face, so hurt

You chase everything in a tight min-skirt (baby I’m sorry)

That hurt was she better than me

Bein in love ain’t cost but you ain’t even free

Why me? Why you standin right here?Pullin on my wrist singin in my ear

You wanna make love no you wanna play games

I’m a grown woman better check my name

Tired of being damaged all I do is cry

You wanna start over gimme 1 reason why

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i love the lyrics. haha. damn kurang ajar right? ;)

ihatethis

2009-05-05T10:16:00.002+08:00

Maybe I was stupid

For telling you goodbye

Maybe I was wrong for trying to pick a fight

I know that I got issues

But you're pretty messed up too

Either way I found out

I'm nothing without you

**********

Being with you is so dysfunctional

I really shouldn't miss you

But I can't let you go

**********

URGH!
STUPIDSHIT!!

My Numero Uno

2009-05-05T00:29:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday Mummy.

Hope you'll enjoy the surprise party I'm planning for you.

Friday night, you better be ready!!

Hehehe ;)

After all this times

2009-04-28T15:45:00.002+08:00

We weren't on the same boat.

Or were we?

As much as I thought I knew,

I can't figure you out.

Listen, don't just hear

2009-04-24T11:19:00.000+08:00

If you dont' know me at this point then I highly doubt you ever will.

Cry me a river

2009-04-23T11:19:00.003+08:00

I've finally let it out.

I've been sweeping things under the carpet

and its just too much.

I know it's not the best place to do it,

I tried holding back,

but wet cheeks was what I got.

Crying was nothing unusual before,

but it is now.

Maybe I am stronger than what I used to be.

2004

2009-04-23T10:05:00.003+08:00

Time really flies.

I remember that afternoon very well.

My yellow shirt and dark blue denim jeans.

The texture of the red sofa is still very fresh in my mind.

At that point,

I knew you were the one.

And I've never look back ever since.

Things I never thought you'd do

2009-04-21T13:32:00.003+08:00

I may not look like one,

but I'm a tough tough cookie.

Even if I'm not 'so' tough,

I'll work my way there.

I'm only human.

I can't keep it together all the time.

I just can't be sorry for that.

Can't hold it together any longer

2009-04-21T09:55:00.001+08:00

I miss you sayang.

Its not even funny anymore.

Things will be better.

I promise.

Tell me something I don't know

2009-04-19T15:59:00.004+08:00

No more, no less.

I won't compromise.

You don't miss what you don't have.

Maybe its because of that.

Complicating the uncomplicated

2009-04-14T10:35:00.005+08:00

You of all people should know

that I'm in this for long,

that I'm serious about this.

It feels good to have assuarance once in a while

Never too late

2009-04-13T14:01:00.001+08:00

What if

I don't have a choice?

Fight for me.

Dont even think of it

2009-04-11T19:08:00.002+08:00

I gave you your chance

Not once, not twice

but countless.

Still, I'm giving you now.

What have you got to say for yourself?

I'm waiting for you to do something.

I'm still waiting.

I'm even pointing you to the right direction.

But you're not doing anything.

Don't blame me if this door closes on you.

That little something

2009-04-11T19:03:00.002+08:00

Scared yet thrilled.

I'm reminded by the tinkling feeling.

Having butterflies and skipping heartbeats.

What a lovely thing.

No better way to start a new beginning.

Should I explain how happy I am again?

Hehe ;)

Koko Lover

2009-04-11T14:28:00.001+08:00

At this point,

you're my one and only lover.

Meet Koko :)

We, Us, Ours

2009-04-09T11:49:00.004+08:00

You, you and you.

You're giving me a headache.

And the last thing I need now,

a heartbreak.

Just once perhaps

2009-04-09T10:53:00.000+08:00

Just once, I wish you’d tell me you miss me.

Just once, I need to know our years together meant something to you.

Just once, I wish you’d let your guard down.

I don’t even know what the hell I’m saying here.

Act upon it

2009-04-08T11:28:00.001+08:00

All I need is a sign.

Sometimes, all you have to do is

show.

Rupa dan Jiwa

2009-04-08T09:52:00.003+08:00

Don't comment on the title.

Its just a book I saw while loitering around Ramli's library cum office while we were there for a very quick supper. Hehe.

Went to watch Rasa unmasked in KLPAC.

It was brilliant!

Had supper at Shook and Ramli's after.

Slept at 0330 and up again at 0800 (-_-")

I.....need....sleeepppp.....

Mumbles fumbles

2009-04-07T17:46:00.002+08:00

You talk so much yet you don't deliver.

What's that again?

Can't hear what you're saying.

HAHAHA.

You spoke too soon

2009-04-07T00:42:00.004+08:00

too good?

its nothing close to that.

its me who has been keeping myself happy.

Showing the obvious

2009-04-06T12:53:00.003+08:00

You're actually very proud of it, aren't you?

Shame.

I thought you were beyond that.

Action speaks louder than words.

Haha.

Erased

2009-04-05T15:51:00.002+08:00

You don't see me

The same no more

It's hard

To see the light with closing doors

Don't treat me like

Like I'm invisible

Your tone with me

It's not the usual

We scream, we fight

Saying things that we both regret

And that's not right

That you could just forget me like that

You've never tried

Always taking the easy route

Never want to work it out

*****

You want to be free

You want to leave me

I can't believe '

Cause without you

Baby I'm incomplete

*****

Am I erased

Just a segment

Of your imagination

I'm feeling replaced

Like a faded picture

Where you can't see my face

Scratched out

Erased

*****

In memory of

What we used to call love

I reminisce

When it used to be us

Remember when

When I was the most

Important to you

But now I'm a ghost

This trust has died

There's no way we can bring it back

We live our life

No holds-barred

And no strings attached

It's in your eyes

A part of you just wants me back

And all of me just wants you back

*****

You want to be free

You want to leave me

I can't believe

Am I.. Am I..

*****

Can anybody see me

See me now?

I'm erased from the crowd

So cold and I don't know how

Find me now.........

Wasted

2009-04-05T09:41:00.002+08:00

Distance makes the heart grow fonder.

I guess not.

Its not going anywhere.

We're just running in circles.

Walk away.

Be more like me

2009-04-04T15:49:00.005+08:00

Some people will work things out

And some just don't know how to change

It took you a week?

A text barely half a page?

Don't blame time.

You had lots of it.

Are you realising something?

Maybe if you had done something earlier,

things wouldn't be as dry as it is now.

When love overlooks happiness

2009-04-04T10:56:00.004+08:00

Its not about who you want to be with,

but who wants to be with you.

Its not about who you love,

but who is in love with you.

Its not about the years you've been together,

but being together for the years to come.

Slumcat million-dolls

2009-04-03T21:25:00.005+08:00

(Jai Ho)

(Jai Ho)I got (I got) shivers (shivers),

When you touch away,

I'll make you hot,

Get all you got,

I'll make you wanna say (Jai Ho)

(Jai Ho)

I got (I got) fever (fever),

Running like a fire,For you I will go all the way,

I wanna take you higher (Jai Ho)

I keep it steady

Cuz steady is how I feel it.

This beat is heavy, so heavy,

You gon feel it.

(Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho)

You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho)

You are my destiny,

Jai Ho! Uh-uh-uh-oh!(Jai Ho)

No there is nothing that can stop us(Jai Ho)

Nothing can ever come between us,(Jai Ho)

So come and dance with me,

Jai Ho! (oohh)

Catch me, catch me, catch me, come and catch me,

I want you now,

I know you can save me, come and save me,

I need you now.

I am yours forever, yes, forever,

I will follow,

Anywhere in anyway,

Never gonna let go.

Jai Ho

(Jai Ho) Escape (escape) away (away),

I'll take you to a place,

This fantasy of you and me,

I'll never lose the chase.

(Jai Ho)

Yeaahhhh (Jai Ho) Yeaahhhh

I can (I can) feel you (feel you),

Rushing through my veins,

There's an notion in my heart,

I will never be the same.(Jai Ho)

Just keep it burnin', yeah baby,

Just keep it comin', (Jai Ho)

You're gonna find out, baby,

I'm one in a million.

(Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho)

You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho)

You are my destiny,

Jai Oh! Uh-uh-uh-oh!

(Jai Ho)

No there is nothing that can stop us(Jai Ho)

Nothing can ever come between us(Jai Ho)

So come and dance with me,

Jai Ho! (oohh) (You and me, it's destiny)

Catch me, catch me, catch me, come and catch me,

I want you now,

I know you can save me, come and save me,

I need you now.

I am yours forever, yes, forever,

I will follow,

Anywhere in anyway,

Never gonna let go.

Jai Ho (Yeeeaaahh), Jai Ho (Yeeeaaahh), Jai Ho

I need you,

Gonna make it,(Jai Ho)

I'm ready,

So take it!

(Jai Ho)

You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho)

You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho)

You are my destiny,

Jai Oh! Uh-uh-uh-oh!

(Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us,(Jai Ho)

Nothing can ever come between us,(Jai Ho)

So come and dance with me,

Jai Ho! (oohh) (You and me, it's destiny)

Jai Ho!

Baila baila!

Jai Ho!

Baila baila!

Jai Ho!

The rest is still unwritten

2009-04-03T17:54:00.003+08:00

I don't mind taking the risk.

If it happens, then its fated.

If it doesn't, other things will show up.

Like how some things did.

Hehe.

Its a cycle

2009-04-03T12:34:00.005+08:00

Its so bloody painful.

The pain killers are not working.

I wish I could go home and sleep it off.

The waiting kills

2009-04-02T10:10:00.004+08:00

This week has been awfully hectic.

Its Thursday, yet I'm still feeling the Monday blues.

On a brighter note, the days are getting closer.

I'm calling you

2009-04-01T16:34:00.001+08:00

Is it 'silent moment' again?

If it is, it's not helping.

Not even a little.

Another year has passed

2009-03-31T13:18:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday.

You have so much to celebrate.

A year older, hopefully wiser too.

I'm numb.

I don't know if it's good or bad.

What's in it for me?

2009-03-30T10:37:00.001+08:00

You want me to respect you.
You want me to trust you.
You want me to prioritize you.
You want me to love you.

But what can you do for me?
What can you give me?

All I want is for you to trust me.

Can you do that?

Excuse me?

2009-03-30T09:53:00.002+08:00

Since when did you care?

I thought you wanted to date and meet new people?

You've put me on the shelf for far too long.

I'm not made to collect dust.

You of all people should know that.

"I don't want to play the broken-hearted girl"

Its just a word

2009-03-29T14:48:00.001+08:00

Guilty?

Not gonna say sorry.

Not this time.

The irony

2009-03-29T14:29:00.003+08:00

I keep asking myself.

How sure am I about being sure?

What if it's just a comfort zone?

Should we try?

We've been trying.

Guess we got to try harder.

And this time, without passion and sympathy.

"Letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go"

When you think of it

2009-03-28T17:56:00.005+08:00

Its like putting salt on an open wound.
Thats exactly how I feel.
Since you're up and bouncing,
I should too.
I should not waste my time over this.

Office Politics

2009-03-25T10:07:00.003+08:00

You walk into the office, talking on the phone.

She was in here speaking to someone on the phone too.

You guys were actually talking to each other.

Answering each other's question.

It was like a live telecast.

She was asking, yet i could hear the answers.

That person was just next to me.

They could even hear each other's voices.

Funny right?

Why talk on the phone when you're just separated by a cubicle?

And realizing the conversation might go on and that they didn't wanna blow the cover,

you walked out pretending to go to the loo or something.

Here's the part where its bloody ridiculous.

You come in and you ask me,

"Is she there at her seat?"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHA

Who are you trying to kid???

You think I'm that dumb?!?

Now this is

office politics.

Don't feel blue

2009-03-24T09:20:00.000+08:00

Is this love?

Or is it just an infatuation?

An hour but not more than two

2009-03-20T16:50:00.000+08:00

Don’t say we’re okay

Just because I’m here

You hurt me bad but I wont shed a tear

Of starvation and boredom

2009-03-18T17:12:00.004+08:00

Sporty

stella mccartney

Mixed Metallics

miu miu

Moto Bootie

Proenza Schouler

Cowboy
Givenchy by Riccardo Tisci

Rewind

2009-03-18T12:59:00.002+08:00

You assume too much and look where it has brought us.

I want to press the rewind button right this instant

Fernleaf

2009-03-18T10:29:00.002+08:00

Say what???

A week kills me,

what more a month.

I hope 33days will travel like a flash.

By the way...

2009-03-16T10:01:00.005+08:00

The first rule:

Never make assumptions.

:'(

2009-03-14T15:56:00.003+08:00

I thought I'm made of steel.
Little that I know,
I'm more fragile than a delicate little flower.

what is enough?

2009-03-14T15:45:00.003+08:00

Do you know that feeling
that you've tried so hard, you've put in so much
yet its not enough.
You know you did all that you could possibly do.
You put on your best clothes.
You prepare the best meal.
You give first class treatment.
You give it some time, so you don't look too pushy.
You give it patience and add lineancy to it.
You give your bloody everything.
But....
Its just not enough.

Tell me what is?

Maybe I'm not enough.
Or maybe you're just asking too much.

How now brown cow?

2009-03-08T11:34:00.003+08:00

It used to be 'petaling street' but now its all authentic.

With pictures of paperbag alright =P

Then it used to be 'i dont drink nor do i do drug'.

But now its beer flashing all the wayyyy.

Hahaha.

Tue la, mengata orang lagi.

See what you've become.

Exactly what you talked about others.

What was it that you said,

'baru nak up'?

Hihihihihihi.

What goes around, comes back around.

Candid in time

2009-03-05T23:23:00.004+08:00

Sorry I've abandoned this blog.

Been really busy this lately.

Work Work Work.

Can't wait for the white sandy beaches :)

Burn bitch burnn

2009-02-23T14:27:00.002+08:00

You can kill yourself for all i care :)

Half full

2009-02-11T17:47:00.000+08:00

I feel empty.

And so they say

"Live life abundantly"

Walk with me baby

2009-02-05T22:10:00.007+08:00

Tony Bianco

Steve Madden

Nine West

MY ULTIMATE FAV :):)

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Now I wish I'm living in the US! Sighhhh

*continues dreaming*

Random ramblings

2009-02-05T15:59:00.003+08:00

Why must you be so perasan that its you?

Get a life sister!

I have other things to keep me on my feet.

No, nothing to do with you at all!

Ahahahaha.

Pity you.

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I'm having stomach cramps at the moment. Can't be the menses cycle. Or maybe its nearing? I don't keep track nowadays so I can't really tell. Yes yes, that's bad but I seriously have no time to jot down each and every time it happens. Considering it does come monthly. Haha.

Incase you're wondering, we're doing absolutely great. Perfectly strong and falling more and more in love every day. It gets rough at times, but we sleep it off for a better tomorrow. You got that right. We're one 'sleepy' couple. I'm happy just the way it is now. Yes, I'm talking about IZS. Hehehe.

I want to post pictures but I can't find any that's interesting so I guess I'll leave you with this. And NO, I'm not full of myself, just sometimes. Hahaha.

JCrew love

2009-02-02T17:16:00.001+08:00

I love this.

Bold, chunky jewellery with basic cotton t-shirts.

s.d.n.e.i.r.f

2009-02-01T14:20:00.004+08:00

Friends.

You meet, you hang out, you get close and along the way there'll be challenges of trust and honesty.

But is there such term of just 'dropping a friend'?

You fight and either stop talking or get over it.

But acting like we've never known each other and stop any form of communication is totally ermm, weird?

Especially being in the same room and not acknowledging each other.

Its so funny how some people can do it.

I can't.

Durban II

2009-01-29T19:25:00.005+08:00

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2009-01-29T18:28:00.008+08:00

Umhlanga Beach

It is pronounced as (oom-schlang-ga)

Its sooooo beautiful.

They're building a new jetty with lamp posts that resembles an elephant's tusk.

But with blue lights though.

Theres contstruction work everywhere.

All for the BIG 2010.

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Eleanor Hardwick

2009-01-28T21:30:00.004+08:00

Can you believe these beautiful pictures are from a 15 year old girl?

Eleanor Hardwick

A young student and photographer.

They stick around

2009-01-16T17:42:00.003+08:00

Do we need pictures just to prove that we're friends?

I love them anyways.

To us, To eternity.

2009-01-12T17:47:00.002+08:00

By the way,

I love IZS.

My one and only lover.

"I can't wait for tomorrow to see us"

Productive? NO?

2009-01-12T17:43:00.002+08:00

I need to get a job.

I've been doing absolutely nothing.

Yeap, N-O-T-H-I-N-G.

I've done nothing productive for the past 3weeks.

I'm useless. Add lazy to that too.

Anyone? Everyone?

Hire me pleaseeeee.

*imagine kitty eyes*

But I'm not a boy

2009-01-11T19:17:00.002+08:00

You need to stop listenin' to your friends

Love, respect, and trust your man

So I go to clubs with the guys

And sometimes flirt with the girls

I should be able to roll out

as long as I'm comin' home to you

And give you the world

Sweet little sin

2009-01-10T18:12:00.004+08:00

I LOVE LIPSY!

They have gorgeousss dresses.

lovelovelove

Wanted to kirim mummy the other day,

but most dresses that i wanted takde size :'(

*sobs heavily*

I saw this same exact dress when I was in SA. They were selling it for R1,450.

But when I checked online, its bloody on sale and freaking cheap!!
Sad part, they dont have my size!!!

Fudge!!

On a brigther note, got a Steve Madden's wedge which is uber cute. Will post picture soon.

And Aunty Laila said I can order as much stuff as I want.

Yeap yeap, including those shoes :):)

Hooray for me!

Driving me up the wall

2009-01-09T16:42:00.002+08:00

Mum has been such a pain in the ass since she got back.

Nothing seems right.

Why am I suppose to do and know it all?

Yes, I am a girl, I'm suppose to know how to cook, clean etc.

But what about Kakak? Isn't she a girl as well?

Why didn't you yell at her?

Atleast I clean after my own things :\

Music to my soul

2009-01-08T19:19:00.002+08:00

Current favourite playlist;

1. If I were a boy (remix) - Beyonce feat. R.Kelly
2. Just like me - Jamie Fox feat. T.I
3. Dont wanna fight (reggae version) - Qwote feat. Shaggy
4. Insomnia - Craig David
5. A.N.G.E.L - Natasha bedingfield
6. Was it worth it - Keyshia Cole

Hurry check them out :)

P/S : I asked mum for Burberry 'BRIT', but she got me a 'BEAT' instead (>.<)

When it rains

2009-01-07T12:06:00.003+08:00

I want to tell you that I want it.

The minute you replied, I wanted to tell you everything.

But I didn't.

Why the hell did I hold back?

Maybe because I wanted to feed my ego and show you I was okay.

I wanted you to know that I'm fine without you.

When actually I'm not.

I'm a total mess.

I'm a train wreck.

P/S:I'm still not over you

2009-01-07T11:59:00.003+08:00

The break up, again.

And then the make up.

I want it so badly but I dont know if I can take it.

I can, I know I can but are you sure it won't happen again?

I can't take that anymore.

I don't want to be traumatized or even close doors for love.

Some things are better left unspoken.

That's why I've been missing you lately

2009-01-06T13:57:00.004+08:00

I guess there's so much more I have to learn

But if you're here with me I know which way to turn

You always give me somewhere

Somewhere I can learn

You make it real for me.

Tickle me fancy

2009-01-05T22:07:00.002+08:00

I freaking hate linesss!!

Urghhh.

I hate hate lines!

When I'm weak and down

2009-01-04T17:56:00.002+08:00

"you whisper the words and drive my worries away"

The day we own it

2009-01-04T17:06:00.008+08:00

I wish I could have a house like her's.
Even if I have to wait a million years.

hehehehe.

I'm kidding.

I'm not materialistic and definitely not that desperate =P

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U'huh. That romantic, calming swimming pool.

A super long dining table so my whole family could sit together. Not to mention, the waiting/resting area after we're done pigging out!

The outdoor dining area incase we get bored of eatting in =D

Not forgetting the lovely patio for smokes that is connected to the fish pond.

The reason to why I could be granted all this, my very own Little Masjid.

And lastly, my maids should definitely be dressed like this! Hahaha.

Judging through your fashion sense

2009-01-03T14:09:00.008+08:00

WARNING : BITCHY MODE IS ON.

So please switch your's on or you can exit this page by pressing the X button on the top right hand corner if you can't take bitchiness.

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The urmm, dressing, it has improved tremendously. Yes, that much. Before it was just tshirt or those thin sleeves with your jeans and your chunky belt with a G and flip flops. Now its a 360degrees turn! Not even a twist. Its good that you've finally found your true sense of dressing, but even so, you need not condemn or comment on how others dress just because you claim yourself to be a "fashionista". Talking about others doesn't make you any better. They probably look even more 'normal' than you do while walking in a mall. Yes yes, not everybody can pull it off like you do. Same old same old comment about yourself. Before praising yourself, you should let others do it first. Then you can start going on about it.

Go get yourself some nice evening bags pls. Oh and yes, you are in need of shoessss. From knee upwards, you can shake that fashionista thang, but knee downwards, its a major NO-NO. So before you start commenting on others, make sure you are either Karl Lagerfeld or Cavalli or Vera Wang or whomever that has clothes on the runway for god knows how long (although some clothes are inappropriate but who am I to judge). Don't simply say things just because you've transformed into a fashion addict!

Gosh, this people should just shoot themselves in the head and die. If you don't want to do it yourself, come to me, I'll help you. Conceited is good, but this, its just too much.

Its 230 pm and I'm only having my breakfast. I'm one angry girl. Toodloo :)

Feast the eyes

2009-01-02T21:39:00.008+08:00

I haven't got the time to sit and crack my ass just yet for editing. hehe.
ENJOY!!!

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" I cant let you go cause I'm too attached "

Of a new beginning

2009-01-02T15:59:00.010+08:00

Hello 2009!

I hope this year would be better than 2008, not that last year was bad, but I want more adventure and excitement for this brand new year!

I finished my diploma and i have 1 and a half years to go. Received my offer letter from the unis I applied to. I got 6 subjects exempted. Quite a relief but I still haven't decided on what to do. I'm in no rush to graduate. And even if I want to finish off early, there would be thin chances anyone might want to hire me as I have no working experience at all. Yeap yeap, AT ALL. There probably be no use of graduating with a double degree by then =P

As for my social-life, I think I've found just the right ingredients for it. Although, some might not be very happy with it, but I guess you'll only be 20 once in your lifetime (unless you have 9 lives like cats do) so there's nothing wrong with enjoying it. Then again, I have my limits and I am proud to say that I am capable of watching my boundaries. Not just watch, but to pull myself to never trip too ("_")

We've grown stronger than ever. 2 months of not communicating (no calls, no messages, no msn/skype) was tough but we made it through. Yes, no form of communication what so ever in case you are still wondering. We survived and I am now stronger, mentally and spiritually. Not to mention, I am much calmer in arguements nowadays. I actually look forward to the things that might come our way in the future. Cheers to us and to all the obstacles we've pull through. I love you and will always do :)

It is true what they say, you can never live up to people's expectation as everyone has their own opinion and say. I've always been the type of girl who never cares what others has to say about me. I don't owe anyone a living so the next time you feel like speculating things about me, first think like I do ;) Although sometimes, just sometimes, its good to know what people think of you and I don't deny that fact that I do care about what "some" has to say about me. No, you're not in that group of "some" people so don't have a big head just so. Those people are my family and my close friends. Friends that really knows me, in and out and accept me for myself. Don't call yourself a friend if you only call me when you have problems with your boyf. Thank you, but I have better friends to care about. I've made new friends while some old ones leave. Its life, people come and go and I cant expect much from it, can I?

The thing I look mostly into for 2009 would be myself. Yes, that is what I want to improve most. I've learned a stack of new things within a short period of time. I want to slowly move towards it and be a better person. Let go even if its the hardest thing to do and don't ever dwell on your past. Let it all be a chapter in your life that will help you move forward. Learn from it instead of living in guilt. Mistakes happen for a reason and one of it is for us to learn from them.

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I welcome 2009 with arms wide open :)

" And then you'll see, you're gonna go far "

Got everybody watching what I do

2008-12-26T14:58:00.006+08:00

SOUTH AFRICA
" The Land of The Big Five "

Duration of stay : 12 weeks and 3 days
States visited : Johannesburg, Durban , Cape Town

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JOHANNESBURG

Arrived in the afternoon and headed straight to Aunty Zora's apartment. It was in an area called Fordsburg. Just 5 minutes drive to town, Johannesburg itself. Well, its just a traffic light away. There we were, 2 girls, all on our own. Aunty Zora was Shiela's guardian, she lives in Botswana and the apartment is only busy when they come down to Joburg or else it would be empty. We were lucky we had a place to stay :) Furthermore, its a private gated apartment BUTTT because its close to town, crime rate is higher around there! Yes, the closer you are to town, the higher possibilities of getting robbed or hijacked despite having the electric fences or burglar bars securing your home.

Introducing to you, the South African born Malays, from left to right, Aqeelah, the Mariah Carey die hard fan, Rafeeka, the soft, gentle, most eldest amongst the children and Kashiefa, the South African version of Shiela. Hehehe. They are such wonderful people! I can't imagine myself without them there. Feeka would drive down to Fordsburg and pick us up everyday to either hang out at her house or go to malls. One thing about South Africa, they like squeezing. A VW Golf can fit 6-7 people. Yes, if that's what you're thinking, they do sit on each other. Rafeeka here drives a Cooper and imagine when she comes with the other 2 monkeys to pick us up. Once, there were 6 of us in the car and I was the one who had to sit on another person ("__") Hahaha.

Aunty Wasila

Uncle Muhammad

Kashiefa and Tasneem

This was on Eid. Their celebration of Eid is not much difference as compared to ours. They also have the 'beraya' session with family and visitings from early morning till late night. What amazes me was the youth's way of celebrating Eid. In the morning, they put on kurta/ kurti/ abaya (cloak) to perform the Eid Salaah. The boys will go to the Masjid, while the girls stay home to clean up and prepare food for the big day. They will be in that outfit till about lunch time. After cleaning up, they'll change into their REAL Eid outfit which are casual wear. Yes, they'll put on the nicest, jeans, top, dress, bag, shoe, etc. and go to Zoolake (a big garden with lake). There, everyone will be flashing their cars, their designer's jeans or bags and hang out till late night. Funny innit? You go to a specific place to publicize yourself and your things. Haha. But luckily we didn't have to go or else I'd drown myself in the lake! As for the elders, some choose to stay home and continue having visitors/ they go visiting or they go out to the malls with family. As you can see, the pictures above were taken at Brightwatercommons,a mall with shops out in the open-air and a big outdoor skate park. Thanks to Uncle Muhammad and Aunty Wasila, we managed to visit yet another mall even on Eid day. Hehehe. They have 3 crazy children, Tasneem, Anis and Yassin. All of them are so talented! They can sing, dance and even tell a really good joke !

Of gold and independence

2008-09-01T17:24:00.006+08:00

And off to the city for some fun.

Champagne,
simply elegant and classic.

Of cold feet and confusion

2008-08-30T01:58:00.002+08:00

I dont want to leave :'(

But it's going to be a lifetime experience.

Well, if all goes as planned,

then I dont mind going.

But when its time to leave,

I wanna follow you home.

Please stay with me longer :(:(

Of days together

2008-08-28T16:08:00.002+08:00

I want an anniversary date.

Its been years yet we don't have any.

I can't remember when exactly.

But I remember the month though!

So can I have an anniversary month?Hehe.

If that's the case, we shall celebrate for 30 days (day and night!)

Hahahaha.

Of drinks and gossips

2008-08-28T15:28:00.003+08:00

I miss having a girls day out.
And yesterday was definitely worth the wait.
Brown Brothers was excellent.
Not forgetting, scrumptious Malibu :):)
Gathered early at Shazzy's and by midnight,
some of us agreed to continue the party elsewhere.
So we danced the night away at Loft Heritage (not Zouk, although they were having the final LapSap party)
I had an awesome time with my girls.
Thank you lovely ladies.
Should do it again before I leave to SA!
MWAH.

Of impulse getaway and fish bites

2008-08-26T15:14:00.003+08:00

Pulau Kapas was great.

Qimi Chalet was love.

Kayak was exciting.

Snorkeling was awesome.

The unplanned weekend getaway was heaven.

Of dark noon and late lunches

2008-08-25T16:40:00.007+08:00

Waited anxiously for the week to come to an end so I could finally have good quality time.

Thursday rolled in with a dark gloomy start.

1230pm seemed like 0700 in the morning.

Went to the immigration to get things done then off to the dentist.

A slight misunderstanding occurred and filled the day with anger.

It was late noon when all of us sat together for 'lunch'.

Surprised by the visit, yet relief and still playing hard to get.

Spent time talking in my room while he plays PSP and I pack.

He would have followed to the island if there weren't any practices.

Damn you test session! Lol.

Will update more soon. Pictures coming right up :)

Of love at first sight

2008-08-20T00:17:00.002+08:00

Say hello to my new bestfriend.

The gorgeous and eye-catching item I met sometime last week :)

Of gadgets

2008-08-18T12:22:00.005+08:00

I want this :

AND

But I think I have to settle for this :

Its so hard to decide. Cant seem to make up my mind! Blergh.

Of cash withdrawal and guilt

2008-08-18T01:23:00.003+08:00

Standing at the atm machine, keying in the pin number and amount to be cashed out.

*selects 'YES' to finalise the transaction and waits patiently for the moolah*

Retrieved money and walks away happily.

*great exciting journey ahead :)*

The large sum of rm*,000 was spent within a day.

Less than 3 hours, to be precise.

While standing on the escalator, heading back to the car,

a sudden rush of guilt swarmed my mind.

And the sweetest thing he uttered was

"i didnt take u out shopping to see the long face, so smile for me syg"

Thank you for always understanding and being patient with me.

There's no other way I could express my sincere appreciation

than a simple 'thank you' from the bottom of my heart.

Thank you, You.

ILYVMS.

Of 'done' blogging

2008-08-17T00:49:00.002+08:00

I deleted my previous blog because I thought Iwas done blogging.

But as you can see, I have a NEW one now.

Which means I lied!

Well, the thought lied.

Hahahahaha.

Well, I thought I was and as much as I hate to admit this,

I am addicted to blogging!

Minus the irregular updates and jibberish topics I come up with.

Then again, this is my blog.

This is where I seek refuge and vent out what's bottled up inside.

You are welcome to read and enjoy this blog :)